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Yep, Back home, things are ok, pretty calm and lazy actually.
I'm going to take a quiz now, just for fun! Nothing better to do, seeing as I've had to stay home....I was sick for awhile, but I feel much better now! I just have to sit here...and I'm bored.


My life according to Google*

1: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:

flik needs talent

- that makes me sad =( its not very nice.




2: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:

Flik appears to be everything we'd hoped it would be

-Yay!


3: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:

Flik does find bugs but not warriors instead the bugs he found are circus bugs.

- wow...

4: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:

Atta doesn't exactly care for Flik's zany ideas, and grows to hate him when he accidentally spills the offering for the grasshoppers

-noooo

5: Type in "[your name] goes" or "..has gone" in Google search:

Flik goes off to talk with Vik and starts stripping

-Ah! NEver!

6: Type in "[your name] loves" in Google search:

Flik loves dick

- O_O

7: Type in "[your name] eats" in Google search:

Flik eats his words

-Oh dear




8:Type in "[your name] has" in Google search:

FLIK has a nibblers section that includes hamburgers, cheeseburgers, French fries, onion rings, mozzarella sticks, chicken wings, grilled chicken, ...

-now I'm hungry.



9: Type in "[your name] died" in Google Search:

Flik died January 22, 2008. He was 33 years old.

-Noo thats scary, not nice.



10: Type in "[your name] will" in Google search:


Flik will balance perfectly as is.

-aww yay, thats something I can look forwards to.

Now...I think I'll try it for Dante! shh, don't tell!

Dante's according to Google*

1: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:

Dante needs a more powerful guide, who represents faith, the divine gift that infinitely surpasses reason

-Wow...hope I can live up to that.

2: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:

dante looks like a woman anyway

-No he does not! He looks like a good man!

3: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:

Dante does it

- For me he does ^-^;

4: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:

Dante Hates Your Job

- but...I don't have one =(

5: Type in "[your name] goes" or "..has gone" in Google search:

Dante goes to church

-Does he really?

6: Type in "[your name] loves" in Google search:

dante loves the big bathtub!!

- aw I know! sweetie!

7: Type in "[your name] eats" in Google search:

Dante eats shrooms and trips out man!

-Nooo ;-;

8:Type in "[your name] has" in Google search:

Dante has been the most positive out of everyone.

-aww thats my boy!


9: Type in "[your name] died" in Google Search:

Dante died in his sleep of internal hemorrhaging caused by a bleeding ulcer on May 25, 1975.

-STOOOP NO!!! ;-; now I'm all crying!



10: Type in "[your name] will" in Google search:


DANTE WILL NEVER DIE!!!

-Thats exactly how I feel!!!

Schuss!

Well here I am...in Berlin. Still in Germany for those of you who don't know of 'Berlin.' I've been here nearly two weeks now and I've been miserable the majority of it. I'm so tired...and worn out in every way. But Dante's here now, he came for me, which was something I never would have dreamed he would be capable of doing or wanting to do. But he is here, and he says he will get me home some how. I believe him too, I have to.
Either way, we're here and we're currently busy so I can't type much, So, I'll update more later! I promise. Hopefully from home...yes, New York is refered to as my home to me now. =)

Yes, thats right. I was deported. Randomly. I was having a wonderful day with Dante, things felt great...then they came and took me away and now I didn't have a chance to fight to be able to stay with him. I just got taken away and now I'm in a plane on my way to Germany...the Berlin Flughafen. I feel so...so dazed right now. I don't know if its real or if its a dream...a nightmare. Am I really gone? I didn't get to say goodbye to him...what will I do if I can't get back to the U.S.A? Dante won't come for me...he can't come to Deutschland...he's afraid of a plane. He wouldn't come for me. He wouldn't pick up the phone to say goodbye. I feel like my heart can't hurt anymore...its broken, its shattered...I dont know how to live without him. I can't do it. I can't even stop thinking about him and how I want him to wake me up, I don't care if he tickles me into waking, he always does, I already miss that. I miss his smile, his eyes, his hair...his touch. I miss him so bad I hurt all over.


--LAYER ONE--

Spell your first name with animals

Flamingo
Lamb
Iguana
Kiwi
Kitten
Impala
Newt

--LAYER TWO--
Full name: Flikkin Adamski Witzenburge
Birthday: May 10th 1989
Nickname: Flik, Muffin
Location: Germany
Eye Color: Brown
Natural Hair Color: Brown
Right or left: Left

--LAYER THREE--

Shoes you wore today: I didn't
Your perfect pizza: I'm not too picky.
Best holiday: Valentines Day
Best Missed Memory: I should have accepted Dante's suggestion to make cookies this morning...

--LAYER FOUR--

How many pets do you have: 2
If you could go anywhere in the world where it be?: New York...never thought I'd say that.
The last movie you saw at cinemas: I don't remember it, its been a year ago or so.
Who you went with: Erin

--LAYER FIVE--

Pepsi or Coke: Coke a Cola
McDonald's or Taco bell: Mcdonalds
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Lipton Ice Tea or Brisk: I like both
Chocolate or Vanilla: Both at the same time.

--LAYER SIX--

Do you curse: No
Do you sing: Sometimes.
Get motion sickness: I think so.
Get along with your parents: Not right now
Play an instrument: No.

--LAYER SEVEN--

In the past month have you..
Gone to the mall: Yes
Eaten an entire pizza: Probably
Been on stage: No
Gone skating: Yes
Made homemade cookies: Yes

--LAYER EIGHT--

Have you ever...
Been in big trouble with your parents?: Yes
Lied about your age: Yes
Used a fake ID?: No

--LAYER NINE--

Age you hope to be married: Just before its too late.
Number of Children: One

--LAYER TEN--

In a man or woman...
Best eye color: Grey
Best hair color: Black
Age: 21
Height: 6 foot something...just tall.

--LAYER ELEVEN--

Number of people you can trust: Almost everybody really.
Number of tattoos: One
Number of piercings: none.

70 Odd Questions



70 Odd Questions
What is your middle name?
Adamski

What color is your mailbox?
Purple

Are you single?
No

Have you ever hit a deer?
no, I dont' hit anybody.

Do you have to drive over a bridge to get home?
Depends on which way I'm going home. I can't drive though, so I walk or I take a taxi.

What color is your room?
I think our room is white.

Do you have a small driveway?
we don't have a drive way.

Do you know anyone with the same ringtone as you?
Nope.

What do you do first in the morning?
Cuddle Dante.

What brand is your printer?
I don't have one.

Do you enjoy fighting with people?
Never.

Is your hair naturally straight or curly?
Naturally messy...I guess its straight-wavy

Who was your kindergarten teacher?
Frau Vogel

What is your ringtone?
Its a kitty noise.


Are you taller than your mom?
Maybe by a half inch.

What curse word do you say the most when your pissed?
None.

Are you God?
What? No.

Do you like someone?
I like a lot of people...and I love one.




Do you enjoy writing in colored pens?
Yes, they are pretty.

Does anything hurt on your body right now?
My Stomach does a little.

Do you often cry during a movie?
Yes usually.

Last phone call you received?
I didn't get any...

Last text message?
I don't get those.

Do you hate your life?
Right now I'm considering hating it.

Do you get mad easily?
No not really.

What is your biggest pet peeve?
Bad table manners.

Are you cold?
Nope.

Do any of your friends have kids?
Astev has one. I don't think anybody else does.

Do you know anyone that is pregnant right now?
Dante says he is. But he's just so silly...

Who should pay on the first date?
Me.

How many years older than you are you willing to date?
I dont date, unless its going out with Dante.

Do you have any friends?
Yah, some, Astev, Rupi, Yata, Gragle, Jay and some other people.

Do you have any mean friends?
Mean friends? No...

What is the ugliest color to wear in your opinion?
Orange. Ewww.

Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate?
Yah, sometimes they don't like Dante.

Have you ever felt like driving off a cliff, seriously?
no!

Have you ever contemplated suicide?
I used to...

Do you scratch your ears?
Sometimes when they have a itch.

Who was the last person to hug you?
Dante.

What brand are the pant/jeans you're wearing right now?
I think its some just American brand...I don't know the name. they are not very comfortable.

How tall are you?
5"7

What is the closest green object?
My shirt.

If you were born the opposite sex, what would your parents name you?
Frauke- it means little lady.

Do you want to have kids?
Just the one we have.

What is the brightest color you're wearing?
Goldish yellow.

Who is the friend you have that you would never have expected to have?
Rupi is. He's a police man.

Who do you hate the most right now?
Myself.

What kind of car do you want?
I always liked convertables.



What is your favorite video game?
Mario brothers

Do you like your dad?
I loved him.

Do you have any TV shows on DVD?
No, nope.

Are you wearing make-up?
No...

Do you have a tattoo?
One on my tummy.

Have you ever broken a pinata?
Pinata? whats that?

What time is it right now?
17:02 Deutsche Zeit

Do you know how to draw?
I can, but I'm not that good.

Who loves orange soda?
I would like some.

Who did you last IM?
IM? Nobody.

Do you work a lot of hours?
Not right now.

Where were you in the last 24 hours?
Over seas. In jail, in a plane, in a airport.

Who was the last person that called you?
Nobody has yet.

Is there anything you regret?
So much...

Do you know where your family name originated from?
Yes, we're all German.

Is there an animal that creeps you out?
Cockroaches.

What is your favorite color ON A CAR?
Yellow is cute on Dante's car. But if I had a nice convertable I'd like it to be Purple.

Do you use digital or film cameras?
Digital camera...but I left it at home, all my stuff is at Dante's.

Do you own an iPod?
No.

Have you ever been on a charter bus?
For Soccer I have.

Do you like going to water parks?
I love swimming.

Hm...its true, money can't buy you love. I just thought me getting Dante more money would solve problems between us. He always wants to help his friends and he always wants things, so I just...well I thought he might be better if I gave it to him. We went through hell together to get it, and now that we have it all, nothing has changed. If it has, its gotten worse. I'm in such a horrible mood because of it too...that and other things that frustrate me.
I was exposed to Ed's blood, and he has HIV I guess, so I had to be tested. And instead of testing negative or positive, I tested 'negative' but with a possibility of it being too early to tell. So I have to take more pills, and I can't be with Dante at all still either. Oh, not to mention either of course I had a biopsy the other day and that too came back negative thankfully, but now my stupid spleen is all acting up. Could things just stop? I really want it to stop, I'm so frustrated and upset I could scream.
There is a lot more frustrating me too but...I don't know, I can't rant anymore.
Bee is back, which is good I'm guessing, means we won't be getting married. Dante does everything to avoid that...I am wondering if he'd notice if I took off the ring he gave me. I wonder if he'd notice if I went home...its been two years and he won't even take me on vacation. Maybe I need to go on one alone...Maybe I need to move out for awhile, give him space so he can think about what he really wants. I just have such a hard time because I love him so much. But what else am I supposed to do? I want him to do something for us...rather than Ed, or Bee or anybody. I'm so selfish I know, its horrible, but I've waited so long for my turn I am about ready to explode! I can only wait so long.

We left New York for a trip out to my Aunt and Uncles. we'll be out here for a couple days- and there is a good reason for this, but a reason I don't exactly enjoy dwelling on. But we're safe, we've made sure some how we are. And Dante is here with me, as lovely as ever. After this he says we can maybe be married sooner...maybe even this year! I'm pretty excited! We can go on a vacation, on a honey moon- all the thinsg I've been dreaming about for so long...or at least since he proposed the first time nearly two years ago now. Can you believe it? I've never had anybody love me for so long...unconditionally...let alone somebody who is an etirely beautiful person, somebody I'd have fantisized over if I had met on the streets...he's so perfect for me. I really can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. Heh, well I guess I needed to get that out of my system again.
Either way, good things are coming, despite all the bad recently. We had Ed staying with us, Dante's idea, and he's been there for weeks. But he is using drugs, heroin, around my Dante and this is not good. He overdosed one day when Dante was off with Pneumonia at the doctors (he was so sick! :( ) and I was very scared...it reminded me of when Dante was using and he first overdosed on heroin around me. I still can't sleep good...and I don't even know if Ed is okay yet. Its Dante's friend though, I think if Dante doesn't go visit him I will anyways because I dont' think anybody should have to spend endless nights alone in a hospital, I've done it and I know how depressing it can be.
But, aside from all this, I have great expectations for the near future! Yay!

This seemed amusing. I thought I might try it...then maybe some how talk Dante into trying it too. hehe! I'll update my journal later on, right now things are a bit busy.


Psychoanalyze Yourself; Don't read ahead, just answer the following questions with the first thought that comes to mind. Then read which each answer means at the end. (No cheating! )

1. You are walking in the woods. You are not alone. Who is with you?
Dante

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal?
A cute bunny

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal?
I'd pet it...maybe show Dante and then maybe we'd keep it as a pet.

4. You walk deeper in the woods. You enter a clearing, and before you is your dream house. what size is it?
Its like a cottage, a stone cottage. Maybe just two bedrooms, two bathrooms...not very big. We wouldn't need big...


5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence?
Well...I don't see why we would need one if this is all our property...?

6. You enter the house. You walk into the dining room and see the dining table, what is on it?
Food. Lots of food. Home cooked food like mashed potatoes and meat.

7. You exit the house and a cup is on the ground, what kind is it?
A Stein

8. What do you do with the cup?
take it inside...maybe ask Dante if its his.

9. You walk to the edge of the property where you find yourself standing at a body of water what is it?
The ocean, the Pacific maybe, I've never seen it before and I'd love to.

10. How will you cross the water?
In a big cruise ship...with Dante.


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The ANSWERS

1. The person/people who you are walking in the woods with is/are the most important to you.

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your problems in your life.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems.

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to solve your problems.

5. A lack of a fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality. You'd prefer people not drop by unannounced.

6. If your answer did NOT include food, flowers, candles or people, then you are generally unhappy.

7. The durability of the material with the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship.

8. What you did with the cup is representative of your attitude.

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.

10. The way you cross the water is representative to how easy or hard you expect your life to be.

Felt like taking some quizzes.
I'm on probation- for Dante and Bee's sake and I'm booored out of my mind living on my own! Rupi comes by sometimes, but that is still not enough really. I'm lonely...and bored...and my shoulder hurts, but it will be better soon! Christmas is almost here! I've got to go shopping for Dante- once I feel better and have some money. This year, things are happening!!!
Okay, here is the quizzes.

What Infectious Disease Are You? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Malaria You are one persistent, annoying son-of-a-bitch and your motto is 'if at first you don't succeed; try, try again'. Once you get a foothold in someone's life, you're loathe to let go and honestly, after a few feeble attempts, most of those poor suckers just give up. You're easily distracted by a good beverage, although you prefer beer to mixed drinks. There's something about tonic water that just turns you off. You may not always be at the forefront of everyone's minds, but you never get completely ignored, either--you're too irritating. Malaria 70% Common Cold 60% Bubonic Plague 55% Necrotizing Fasciitis 35% Cholera 35% Gonorrhea 35% Gangrene 30% Amoebic Dysentery 20% Syphilis 10% Influenza 5%

What kind of human are you? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Pop Star Princess You appreciate the finer things in life like American Idol and Ashley Simpson. You like to have fun, because who doesn't like a fun girl! Life is all about choices and if you choose to do nothing with your life, then good for you! Don't let others get in the way of your dreams sista! Pop Star Princess 39% Fascist Dictator 36% Dirty Hippie 36% Baby Jesus Lover 25% No good dirty poop eater 0%

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You scored as Slugma Your a Slugma!You love to stay in cave and magma pits! Slugma 83% Wailmer 50% Chinchou 33% Hopip 33% Bellsprout 33%

What does your birth month say about you created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as May MAY Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding Good imagination. Good physical. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Totally Best person >you'll ever meet!..your the most craziest that you'll ever meet!! May 100% AUGUST 0% November 0% OCTOBER 0% December 0% SEPTEMBER 0% April 0% June 0% january 0% FEBRUARY 0% March 0% JULY 0%

What Famous German Leader Are You created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Frederick William II You are Frederick William II. Regarded as the most brilliant failure on history, William had a nasty reputation as having the worst luck in Europe, he was even exiled out of his own country and shot by his imperial guards. He also owned a vast collection of uniforms and costumes. He wore different ones for each occasion, often 4 or more a day. This habit made people joke about it, saying that when eating plum pudding the emperor would dress as a British Admiral. Frederick William II 55% Otto von Bismark 40% Adolf Hitler (Führer) 40% Adolf Hitler 40% Frederick The Great 30%

Well, I'm on probation now for Dante. Its so he can have Bee again, in our family, maybe. Just two weeks of living 'on my own'. So far Dante's ben here the whole time so its been great. Its just like every other day only Rupi is grumpy at me and Dante for being together. I guess he really doesn't like Dante...maybe Dante was right about that.
Either way, this is how things are. I am in a little place on my own- and I'm sick with a cough. It was just a cold for about a half a day and now its some horrible cough that I can't seem to shake. I feel like I can't breathe half of the time- but I'll be ok, seeing as I always am some how. Dante doesn't beleive it much with how he constantly insists I get tested again and again for a relapse...but he'll learn. Twice was enough!

That aside- Christmas is soon! We had our thanksgiving just the other day and now I need to think about shopping for my lovey on the biggest American holiday of the year! I don't know what to get him...really, though I can figure something out, for sure. And I don't know if I'm allowed to buy for Bee either...I'd like to, really. I feel so guilty for what I did- I wish they could see this...I never meant harm.

-sigh- Oh well. Pushing onward! Busy times ahead! I'll try and write more again soon hopefully before christmas hits.

Well I have a short bit of time here to write about a lot of things. So I'll just try and keep it short and to the point. Dante and I are together again, after his whole prison ordeal for taking heroin. We lost our house, and I had been with Rupi but now we're together and were living at Karma's house. He's a drug dealer- but we left, and now we are living with Ed who is a friend of Dante's. Thats all I know about him really- I don't know where he met him.
I had a good job for a couple of days too- a flower job, I stood around and arranged flowers all day, and sneezed. But, I got moved by one of the managers to the back after some old woman got mad at me. And then I had to sort garbage, which I guess Dante got mad about. I lost my job because of him...I don't think he wants me to work. He went in and punched my boss, and I got fired. This was all after Dante didn't wake me up for work like he always had and well...I guess I need to get up on my own. Otherwise he's not going to let me work. And he can't work- he's sick right now, again. I don't know whats wrong, he told me he has the flu and that he had some routine test a few days ago...but he's not right. He hasn't been 'right' since. So neither of us are working, and well...Bee is in the hospital. The little boy we had been watching. Well, apparently when I gave him to the social worker one night, it turns out that that wasn't the social worker. Now the /real/ social worker told me I have to probably stay away from Bee. And Bee is probably going to be staying with Dante, so I have to move out! I can't let Bee just go...and Dante loves him so much, anybody could see it. So I can't do that to either of them. The guy said if we lived in a apartment building I could live next door...but I couldn't be in the house with Dante if Bee was there. I don't know what I'm going to do...right now I"m at a loss. I feel so miserable and I don't want to be alone but thats just selfish of me I know it. So I should just do what verybody wants...because I don't want to be selfish- I want to be a good person I just don't know how to do anything right. I have to go talk to Rupi...or some other officer now...if I want a chance at ever changing this situation. This means I'll probably have a criminal record...and then I'll never get a job. I have no talent, so I can't just go sing and dance and make lots of money like Dante. I'm just some stupid fat person who just...sits around and does nothing but make everything worse. I know it because it happens...every day. I really wish I just died back then when I should have...I know I shouldn't be alive, and its for a reason. I'm just in the way- thats all. Dante doesn't really need me...I wish he did but what he needs is his job, his music, his career and his friends and then Bee. I just don't fit in with any of this...I really don't. Maybe I'll just run away and never come back...I wasn't doing anybody any harm when I lived alone and I just went to school...which is what I really want to do anyways. But with a criminal record with kids why would they take me back into a school? I'm so stupid! I'll never be anything!

Our third anniversary never happened this year...I don't think Dante wants to marry me anymore. I don't think he ever did.

Because you keep stealing your co-workers lunch from the fridge, you'll be cursed with life on the run.
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Your life most resembles: General Hospital Your life mostly resembles those of the characters on General Hospital. Although you can be melodramatic at times, you lead a fairly normal life. You love to hear gossip, but you are not much of a spreader. Your friends love you because you are reliable and extra fun to be around.

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I've...never been so depressed in my life. I"ve never been so drunk. I've never been so...drunkenly...sick...and miserable. Ugh...I feel awful in every way I possibly could and I just...I honestly want it to end. I just want peace, all I ever wanted was peace.
Everything bad happens...all at once and now I'm just lost as to wh at to do. I know Dante hates me. After all that time keeping me in the house 'for my own good'- he just randomly started using heroin again. He beat people up, got thrown in jail and then he sold me for his stupid drug and...he said after he got out that it wasn't true but then if it wasn't true how come the guy who 'bought' access to me came to me and told me that? He did bad things to me...he touched me and he hurt me and all Dante can do is deny the fact that it happened. Now he wants to talk about it...and honestly...I don't think I can. Thinking about it makes me sick.
We lost our house...we lost Bee, or I did...I blame myself there..fully. Hell, I blame myself for all of this. If I died and didn't cost money because I had cancer then Dante would still have his dream house and his kid and everything he wanted. I am just in the way...I know I am. He doesn't love me...he can't. I am thinking of going home...just going home to Germany. I'll live out my life with my mother and...just be alone. I wanted life to work out so bad...I wanted so much and I still do but it seems so impossible...we're compleatly broke and I can't help...I can't do anything. I'm here in a clinic now again because I guess I got sick. I was just drinking to try and relax and I woke up here. Dante's not here...he's nowhere...I bet he left me. Again. I bet he sold me to science...my body. He hates me. And he'll hate me even more once he finds out what Dave did...and how ruined I am.I think he wants to know so he has a good reason to use to just leave...I don't want him to go though...I don't want it to end. I"m going to die the second it does...I can pretend like I'll be okay but I know I won't be. I know I'm not. I just keep thinking about ending it...the only thing keeping me alive is Dante. He's the only real reason I do all I do anymore...
I love life...or...well I did...but how can I if this is how it will be?

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Things are going well for Dante and I I'd like to think. I'm doing well, I'm healthy still, no problems as of yet really, and he's doing great too. He's still just as wonderful and perfect as ever, and...me, well I'm here, and I'm not dying. I have a sore throat today, and a bit of a stuffy nose, but thats just allergies.
I had to go in for a biopsy yesterday, maybe one of my most painful yet really...it hurts so bad I always think I'm going to die in the middle of it one of these times. But what made it not the worst one yet, was the fact that Dante was with me, the whole time. He held my hand...he was so sweet, he made it so much better and I wish he'd have been there more often. People think its bad for me to have him there, but I think they don't know what they are talking about. Anyways. I had that, as well as some other exam...which was horrible, and I don't even want to talk about it.
On another note though, bills are starting to come, I knew they would...but not this many. So far we have almost half a million in debt to pay, and thats not the full extent of it I know. I'm still getting tested because Dante insists and I have these really expensive pills too. So, I had to get a job, and he had to get a second one. I'm going to work at a ice cream place, and he's working at a fluffy place- I forget what he is selling. I think its bakery items. Which is just fine, he loves his bakery foods, so he should be happy, and when he doesn't want that- he'll probably want ice cream.
Things feel really good right now, I'm so deep in love with Dante its amazing, I really feel like everything is going to be just fine for us now...finally.

[Survey]

1. How do you usually introduce yourself to people:?
Hallo, I'm Flik.

2. What is the longest plane ride you've been on?:
Probably about ten hours, maybe more.

3. Where do you usually order pizza from?:
I'm not too fond of pizza, I never order it.

4. Have you ever been to Houston?:
Whats Houston?

5. Have you ever tripped going up steps?:
Oh of course.

6. What's one thing you really hope to do this summer?
Go on Vacation, do something special for Dante that'll make him happy.

7. Do you have a best friend?
Yes I do.

8. Are you going to be starting a new job this summer?
Yes, at the Baskin and Robins.

9. Are you currently fighthing with someone?
...Not that I know of. I don't 'like fighting anyways.

10. Have you ever felt like killing somebody?:
My gosh no, that'd be so mean.

11. Have you ever thrown something out of a moving car?
I don't think so.

12. Ever taken a sobriety test?
Nope.

13. If alcohol were banned worldwide, what would your reaction be?
I would be upset because its not that bad. I enjoy it sometimes.

14. How old are your parents?
My mom is in her fourties.

15. Do you drunk dial?:
What's that?

16. Can you see a phone right now?
No.

17. When is your birthday?
May Tenth

18. Are you a jealous person?:
I've been jealous before.

19. Ever skip school and spend the day at the beach?:
I'd like to...I probably will if I go back.

20. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
When Dante kissed me last.

21. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
Dante and a Cab driver.

22. How are you today?
tired. and bored.

23. Do you miss anyone right now?
Yes.

24. Do they miss you?
I hope...

25. When you're in a bad mood, what will always put you in a better mood?
Dante's smile.

.26. Do you have any really crazy relatives?
I think so.

27. When people get depressed are you the one they turn to?
I hope they do.

28. Does everyone in your life know the real you?:
Not everybody.

29. What were you doing this morning at 8am?
Being woken up most likely.

30. Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?:
I think so.

31. What was the weather like on your last birthday?:
Probably sunny. I couldn't go outside though.

32. What are you listening to?
Dante.

33. Can men and women be "Just Friends"?
I don't see why not.

34. What woke you up this morning?
A sexy guy, Dante.

35. Who was the last person to leave a comment on your myspace?
Myspace?

37. Initials?:
F.A.W

38. Do you enjoy fighting with people?
Not at all.

39. Have you ever been in the emergency room?:
Yeah.

40. Do you drink coffee?
Nope.

41. Are you a bad influence?
I really hope not, but I probably am to Bee.


42. Have you been to more than 10 concerts?:
No...just two or three, those were Dante's.

43. Are you reliable?:
I try to be, I hope to be.

44. Do you give in easily?
It depends.


45. Do you need to do laundry?:
Oh always...yuck.

46. How old will you be in 10 months?
Eighteen.

47. Do you recycle?
Every day. I want to keep the world clean.

You Are Destined to Struggle With Your Weight

Like most people, you find it a little difficult to stay at at weight you're comfortable with. If you change a few habits and make food less important, you may find the struggle hardly exists anymore.

Your Dating Purity Score: 75%

You are an under-experienced dater. This doesn't mean you're unexperienced - far from it. It just means that there's a lot of romance left to discover!

Your Vocabulary Score: B-

You have a zealous love for the English language, and many find your vocabulary edifying. Don't fret that you didn't get every word right, your vocabulary can be easily ameliorated!

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it. That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power! The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world. Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in. You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways. Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you. As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

You Are Elmo

Sweet and innocent, you expect everyone to adore you. And they usually do! You are usually feeling: Talkative. You've got tons of stories to tell. And when you aren't talking, you're laughing. You are famous for: Being popular, though no one knows why. Middle aged women especially like you. How you life your life: With an open heart. "Elmo loves you!"

You Are 7 Up

Understated and subtle, people warm up to you slowly. But once they're hooked, they can't imagine going back to anyone else! Your best soda match: Diet Coke Stay away from: Mountain Dew

Your Life Is Worth...

$1,106,500

Hey, its been so long...or at least it feels like it has. I haven't been home but a day and a half and I'm already happier too. Dante sent me off to stay at the hospital, a different one with a speciality in cancers I guess. I was in isolation most of the time up until the last few days...then I got to meet some people, and I got to get out of bed...Dante got to see me and t hen he took me home!
I'm never going back there...not for anything- I'm totally cured now, and I am going to live my life the way I always wanted to- Free!
Dante surprised me with all sorts of things too when I got home-it was like a welcome home party, a nice one- more than I could have even drempt up.
He even made me a German supper- which was so good...I've been needing that, just a taste of home because I am home-sick sometimes, towards the house and the land...and having people who arn't so molded by city life. I want Dante to see it, I want him to see that life isn't all like what it is here- and that there is peace and quiet and /true/ natural nature to be seen still. I don't think he's ever seen it...thats sad to me.

We're going on vacation though soon he says- like within a week if I remember what he said. He said as soon as I was better we could just go, he's saving up for it too. I am going to get a job too and I'll help.
And Bee has grown up so much too over the past near-month. He's such a bright boy, and he is a handful too. I think we are doing the best we can with him- better than what he would have had with his true family at least, I hope. I hope we do right by him.

Fou is next door now too, and Dante got me a kitten! So new animals in/around the house! I haven't figured out a name yet,but the little kitty is about as cute and tiny as can be. Its just a handful of orange and white fur...maybe I'll look up some names...I'm no good with them after all.

I have a l ot to regain, a lot to do...I have to grow back some hair soon too because I look silly still...and I have other t hings I need to gain back as well. Dante and I can't be intimate...not for any other reason besides that I'm malfunctionate. I wasn't before...and now...I don't understand...but I'm very worried. I can't stop thinking about it anytime he comes around to kiss me or suggest little things like back rubs or hugs even. Its small things that lead up for us...and I don't want him to start being angry with me because I can't...do anything. So I'm waiting, I'm avoiding it...I'm not taking those new pills incase they do it to me. I can't let Dante find out- since I might get sick from this...but I'd rather be a little sick than be malfunctionate after all this time...its torture. I'm going to fix it...some how.

Looks very good!

You two go great together! If you're not yet dating, you totally should. You're a perfect match!

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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

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Your French Name is:

Boyce Marchand