Das Tagebuch

Its been so long since I updated. My goodness!
I'm still here though, and honestly, I think things are working out for the better. So much has happened...really. Dante got sick with the flu, had to leave, my Mother is in town- she took me to the hospital...where I met up with Kris...ew. And there, Astev found me, and got me out. Its all been such a blur, you know- I've been on pain killers off and on so much my mind is e ven fuzzy now and its been...well I don't know how long since my last. Its probably for the better I don't remember.
Sigh...but, today was my first chemotherapy session. I guess I have to go in more than I did the first time now, they are doing some sort of 'aggressive' treatment. I dunno...I don't really like how that sounds. Dante is back with me though anyways, and now that he is...I just feel like everything will be ok. He makes me so happy...I love him so much. He's always there for me you know, and I know he loves me too. He won't leave me, he promised...and I feel so good. The only thing I have left to worry about now is me...well leaving him. If I can't make it t hrough this...I don't know how much my body will take. Already I feel I've been sleeping the majority of my life away...leaving all the work to everybody else. But I do n't mean to. I really don't...I'm just so worn out. My tummy hurts a lot...I can't wait tell I can be rid of this...for forever. You know...? I don't want to be sick anymore, I just want to live like...well normal people. I want to make Dante happy, I want to do good by him. Thats all.
Wish me luck...I'll need it to beat this again.