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Hey, I made it through another session of chemotherapy today- it wasn't nearly as bad as the first time through. But, I am loosing my hair now, quickly...its falling out in lumps and piles and I look so horrid. I don't even have a hat, let alone the money for one or the energy to even go out and get one. Oh well, I'm sorry...I'm just not very happy right now. I don't have any real reason to be like this, I mean...Dante still loves me, he's still here and he's as sweet as ever- taking care of me and all. I love him...and he loves me- what more could I want? I guess...for this to just last forever? I think I'm just too young to die...
And you know....I'm worried that I might just be edging towards that. I really haven't felt well, and I can't eat much. I don't want to...and I'm so tired all the time. I feel old, and pathetic...I'm worried Dante won't deal with this for much longer...
Either way, enough about me and my crud- Christmas is on the way- soon, within a few days I'm thinking; I haven't seen a calendar in awhile and I'm only guessing. Either way, we've got decorations up, and Bee has come home again as our first big christmas gift. And this year, well, I don't think there will be gifts. I can't get out to shop...and neither of us have any money. It is alright though...just so long as we are all together on christmas day thats all that counts. :)
I'd like to do something for Dante though...at least get him one thing, or give him something...do something for him or with him even. I would have liked to go see the statue of liberty or go through central park on one of those nice horse drawn sleighs...or anything romantic like that, but again, I have a feeling Dante won't allow it. I have to wear a stupid mask when I go outside...as if things already arn't ugly enough...
Anyways, I'm still here! I'm not going anywhere today! I'll write again soon, to let you know I'm still kicking. For now- enjoy some Quiztastical Quizzes!!!

Which Reindeer Are You?
Cupid Just like your name says, you are a total romantic.
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What's Your New Year's Resolution?
Exercise More! Exercise! That's always a good resolution. You can even do it with a group of friends! That way you can all bug each other about it, and you'll be more likely to keep it. And you look like you need that extra help keeping your resolutions this year.
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What kinda partier are you? (funny ass pics)
Occasional partier You like to party but not always...don't wanna get in trouble probally.
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What kind of lips do you have? *PICS!*
Cute Lips You have Cute Lips. Your lips are cute and flirty, and when you kiss you leave your Boyfriend longing for more. All you have to do is smile and you've got him in the palms of your hands!
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What is your fate?? ((With pics))
Die semi-peacfully/Go to Heaven You're a pretty good person. Because of this, you definatly won't die young. Probably between your late sixties and late seventies. You'll go in a moderatly peacful way. But if you ever dreamed about dying in your sleep, I doubt that'll happen. You're going to be going to heaven. But you're not going to be first on their list. It'll take a little while to get your wings and furthur up your status in heaven.
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Which Country Do You Belong In?????
Germany You belong in Germany! Germans like to drink and party and they would think I am weird just like you!
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where is your sex spot?
in the rain Congrats! you are doing it in the rain it is kinda wet yet fun
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