Das Tagebuch

I'm not doing well...I have a feeling I'll soon be in the hospital...and from there, well I don't know how long I'll last. I'm so afraid...this hurts so much in so many ways...I just don't remember it being like this. I wish it would end...I wish I could just make it stop some how. I don't like not being in control of getting well...at this point I'd do anything, I'd give anything. I want to marry Dante...I just want to see the day where I can marry him thats all. I want to have that, if i could just live to that day I'd be so happy...but at this rate, my outlook is really not looking good.